Shadows of the Patriot..


This photo was taken on the 31st of August, 2008 at 12.21am as we were on our way to the car to go home after celebrating the Merdeka Countdown in Mutiara Damansara. We were both quite tired because of the shoppings before that but the tiredness cannot stop her from smiling and her eagerness to celebrate the countdown with great feeling of patriotism instilled inside her. Her great sense of nationalism always greater than me as she cares more. In this picture, she wanted to show her respect and love to this country by saluting to the flag. She always comes with great ideas when taking photos so that there will be some kind of meaning in the photos.

About the background in this photo, this is a building which I'm not sure of the name but it lays right opposite to the Mercedes showroom building and just behind the Damansara Perdana Petronas service station. There were not much people this time as many of them were enjoying the performances at the stage which was located between IKEA and The Curve. We escaped early because those performances and parties were too much for me as it doesn't show any pinch of patriotism or whatever related to this country,just a mess and bunch of stupid yougsters playing and fooling around like it was a night club or party. We were there just to show our appreciation and see how Malaysians celebrate this historical day of independence, and yet I feel sorry because I can see only one Jalur Gemilang that one of the people in the crowd had brought. At the building, there were only few guards behind looking at us. Maybe they want to make sure that we don't mess the place or do anything wrong such as vandalism or something. We are not bad people, dear guards.. The night was clear and quite hot and there were many cops around making sure that everything is going on smoothly and no crime going on, they also guided the traffic around as there were so many cars and other vehicles.

Calling of Nature


Do you miss,
the white sand,
the smooth breeze,
the sparkling blue sea,
the strong waves,
the fresh air,
and most important,
our moments surfing here?

Dude,
we used to rock on many beaches,
and when chicks dig us,
also when other lads challenge us,
there's nothing can stop us,
for we are strong together.

Dude,
since you moved away,
I kinda miss you,
even the beaches and the sea miss you,
I know you have to move on,
to look after your siblings,
after the tragic accident and your loss,
but, will you be back here again?
to answer the nature calls?
I'm still here for you man..


a poem from a friend in Hawaii..where we used to work and play together..



I'm in Paradise...


In this hour,
I have nothing in my mind,
except peacefulness,
I can feel the breeze,
the white waves and clear blue sea,
sparkling in front of my eyes.

The sea reminds me of the paradise,
where everybody craving to go,
where everything looks beautiful,
where no trouble come passing by,
and now,
I am in one,
a paradise on earth.

No more noise,
no more hustle bustle of the city,
no more pollutions,
it's just me and the sea,
life has been beautiful,
and I really wish,
that you can be here too.

to dear Mummy and Daddy..


Do You Remember?


Do you remember?
when we first met,
when we share glances and smiles,
you hardly blink,
and my heart was beating fast.

From your eyes,
I know it's you,
who will become my man,
and then you became shy,
shy enough to dance alone,
and then you came,
trembling,
asking me to dance with you.

We dance,
and dance,
like this world is ours,
nobody around to bother us,
we become closer and closer,
and then my heart is yours,
and your heart become mine,
we tied the knot and never let go.

Now I'm far away,
I have to go for sake of duty,
duty to the country,
I miss you so much,
don't worry my dear,
I'll be there for you again,
and so we can dance together again,
so that you can remember,
how strong our love is,
no matter where we are.

I love you my dear husband!!

buckets of love,
Elena 

The Night I Wish to Forget

I was sending a postcard to my ex-girlfriend where she was 'stolen' by another guy, and here it goes....


Upon seeing this picture,
it reminds me of one night,
a night full of hatred,
a night full of deception,
a night I wish to forget;
A reminiscence of a tragedy.

It was warm and yet breezy,
the sky was clear,
moon shining bright with stars gleaming,
high above the solemn space.

I saw you,
far away from me,
lying in his warmth,
dancing in the moonlit night,
forgetting me and our moments together,
for the new guy.

I tried to call you,
screaming out loud inside my heart,
but you never listen anymore,
you're too far away,
in a joyful treason.

Then I danced alone,
feeling betrayed,
and misery became my partner,
as that sorrowful night crawling away,
and then I am gone,
away from a broken dream,
from the night that I wish to forget, forever. 


World Behind a Door

In the corner of the big house,
a door with a warning sign,
to another world it leads,
a glorious and gay world of mine.

Blue is the main theme,
Brown is the furnishing,
and White defines the boundaries,
My escapism lies in these colours.

The bunk is sitting majesticly on the left,
facing the wardrobe in its coziness,
with the technology smiling in between,
this is no ordinary chamber,
this is my life in my little world.

In here I spend my times,
Appreciating its solidness and pleasure,
of soundproof walls and lightning shield,
keeping me safe and euphoric at the same time,
no hesitations needed,
it's perfect..
it's perfect..

written by:
NivierA

*this is my first poem written in the Creative Writing class.. 

Ramadhan Al-Mubarak

Ramadhan Mubarak bienvenu..Je souhaite le jeûne heureux à chacun..
Peut Allah bénir tout le monde

Meaning..
Welcome Ramadhan al Mubarak.. I wish happy fasting to everybody.. May Allah bless us all..


In this Ramadhan, I discovered that this month can teach me to be very patience, patience to everything. I've faced quite a lot of things in this month and I am proud to be able to stand tough and being persistent or 'istiqamah' in whatever I do. Ramadhan this time is very unique because the Hijriah Calendar is parallel to the Christian Calendar, for example, 1st of Ramadhan is the same with 1st of September. It was actually nothing to be proud of but I was just amazed by the uniqueness. There's a lot of things going on in this month. I love and enjoy my night classes where I can spend time to 'berbuka' or break fast with my friends at the faculty, other than the classes, I spend my time cooking at home and sometimes trying new recipes of my own creation. Some are good and some are not bad. I only managed to go for Tarawih prayer once because of having lots of assignments to be done but I will find some time to go again in coming days, insyaAllah. I also discovered that the food at the bazaar are more expensive and it also not so good, some of them are bad which I don't know how these people could do this in this holy month. How I feel that they are not going to get Halal incomes for selling bad food. Last time I bought rice with chicken and the chicken was smelly and stinky like rotten meat. I also got diarrheas, maybe because of the food I ate but I don't really know, just have to be patient with everything. 

As for my studies, I am really thankful to Allah for all of them are okay, I managed to do my quizzes well, no cheating involved, and all of my assignments are well done, I think and I attend all classes with big heart. I love Ramadhan because it gives me peacefulness and some sort of pleasure and doing 'ibadah' including the 'ibadah sunat' in this month is really rewarding as Allah promises as doing one 'ibadah' in this month is considered like doing 'ibadah' in thousand months. Although I know that I'm not that pious but as long as I do all the compulsories, I know I'll be fine. Before this, I always get sick, I got fever, cold, backache, and I even passed out once, but in this month, Alhamdulillah, everything is fine, just a few minor tummy ache which I got from bad foods as I told earlier. I wish to slim my body down a little bit because my doctor told me that I am facing a slight overweight but it's not a big problem at all. My resolutions for this month are to donate more to unfortunate people, spend more time at the mosque doing 'solat jemaah', and zikr a lot for if we always remember Allah in everything we do, Allah will remember us too. InsyaAllah.. 

My Favorite Fictional Character..

There are lots of fictional characters that come across my mind when I'm thinking about this topic, but I wasn't thinking about superheroes or cartoons for they are not that interesting to me. I'll find those characters as freaks or craps who think they can save the world with their extraordinary abilities which aren't real at all. I prefer something real and acceptable. I have two favorite characters in mind, the first one is Detective John McClane in Die Hard series and the second one would be Jason Bourne from the Bourne trilogy. 

However, I won't talk about John McClane here for he is also someone like too good to be true where we may find that he is too difficult to die and he always wins. So I turn to Jason Bourne which is more lively and acceptable to me. Jason Bourne is character acted by Matt Damon in the trilogy and this character was created by Robert Ludlum in his novels before it is adapted to movies. The first novel, The Bourne Identity is a spy action thriller novel and published in 1980. This novel was about an ex CIA assassin who became a retrograde amnesiac after he got a headwound and several other wounds. He survived only to find out who he really is because he found out that there are several groups, assassins and CIA looking for him to be terminated for he is actually carrying really big secrets about CIA covert operations as he himself was an assassin working for CIA. He also has lots of identities to cover up for his 'bad' operations as he owns lots of passports of different countries with different names and amazingly, he also knows many languages, I repeat, MANY languages which make this character interesting. The first movie of this trilogy with the same title was produced in 2002 and it was made exactly according to the novel and it is very interesting.

This is the first novel by Robert Ludlum and the movie made to introduce Jason Bourne.










The story follows with the second novel published in 1986 entitled The Bourne Supremacy where in this novel, Bourne discovered his true self and what he was in before with the help of his girlfriend, Marie. However, in the movie produced in 2004 with the same title, the story contains a little bit twist and not made according to the movie but it is still very interesting because the story line and plots were arranged perfectly as Jason was in the process of discovering himself which he came to lots of obstructions including the death of his girlfriend, named Marie Kreutz in this movie. 

The second novel and movie











The last of the trilogy is published in 1990 entitled The Bourne Ultimatum and in this novel, Jason discovered his true name as David Webb and he has to finish his fight with his old enemy, Carlos the Jackal who is a terrorist trained under the Russian well known terrorist pact, the KGB and he fights with help from the CIA itself and after the death of the terrorist, Jason or David return to his family (he still has a family in the novel). In the movie with the same title, produced in 2007, contains completely different plot from the original novel where Jason's fight is only against the CIA directors and operatives who are against him and wanting to terminate him for he is a very well trained CIA assassin who's becoming a backfire to the CIA and their efforts in taking him down are useless for he is ready for everything and thinking one step ahead of them. He knows all the tactics and agenda of the CIA to get to him but he's getting closer and closer to them each time they want to get rid of him. Finally, he reaches his final destination which is the first place he was taken in as an operative of the CIA, where he lost his old identity as David Webb and lost everything in his life. 

The third novel and movie











That is supposed to be the end of the Bourne's trilogy but for the novel, after the death of the original author, Robert Ludlum, another author, Eric Van Lustbader proceeded with another sequel for the trilogy consisting of three novels entitled, The Bourne Legacy, The Bourne Betrayal and The Bourne Sanction. However, the sequels are not taken into the silver screen or maybe they are not taken yet. That's some briefing that I can give about the story. The character of Jason Bourne is really interesting to me because he is a very skillful man and very good in survival. He is always ahead of everybody and his plans are perfect and even though there are some times when the troubles come but he still can evade successfully and in fact, he becomes the one who after the bad guys bad and take them down one by one. He is not a bad guy anyway as he only injures each of his victims except when the person aftering him is a well trained assassin like him. He fights for his survival with his knowledge and hidden identities and not like other typical spy stories, who comes with great gadgets and handsome look, Jason only use his intellectual mind and his fast moves to get over every obstacles and indeed, he moves very fast. I idolize him because of his great spirit and determination to achieve something which is amazingly high, he never gets demotivated or upset and he only take down his real enemies but leave other peoples who are interfering in his war unharmed. As for me, Jason Bourne is the greatest fictional character that I salute so much and as you can see, I named my blog as The Niviera Ultimatum, according to the Bourne's last movie, The Bourne Ultimatum and Niviera is my other identity, just like Jason Bourne.

 The first sequel written by Eric van Lustbader in June 2004

The second sequel published in June 2007

The latest novel of Bourne published in July 2008

I Used To Read Books..

Long time ago, not quite long actually, when I was in school, I really love to read books and novels. I started to love reading when I was in the kindergarten when my parents bought me lots and lots of interesting books and one giant map book that I still keep till now. After that, whenever I go with my parents, I will always ask for something to read. 

When I was a kid, the famous books that time would be the 'Kawan' comic cum magazine and some comics such as Doraemon and Dragonball. When I was a bit older, I changed my interest to something serial such as investigation novels, the famous Enid Blyton's series and many more. I also love to check on encyclopedias, and lots of information books like books about facts, laws, science, histories, places, technologies and so on.. Math books would never be interesting to me until now because I really don't like Maths. 

During my secondary school years, I became a librarian together with my good friend back then, Safwan and we were the only male librarians available. I like to be on duty at the library so much that I always spend my time there whenever I got free times. Everyday after school, I would go and buy lunch and rush to the library to discover new things there. I believe that there are so many secrets that I can find in the library and I learn new things everyday. There are certain 
books that I like to read so much that I hide them under the library counter so that I can read them without having to look for them anywhere. I was really fond of books that can give me lots of knowledges and new experiences.

After I got an offer to study in MARA Junior Science College Serting in Negeri
Sembilan, I started visiting the library and started liking novel series again and my favourite novels that time would be Nancy Drews and The Hardy Boys. Those novels were kind of famous at that time and I read almost all of the books but there were some of the books missing or not available which I felt kind of sorry to miss it. At that time, the Ministry of Education introduced the NILAM reading campaign and as a constant reader, I was enlisted as the top borrower of the library and the reader who read so many books with lots of pages (thick books). However, before they pronounced me as the winner, I had to move to other school because of certain cases that I faced there. 

When I finished school, I stopped reading for pleasure. I kind of stop everything. I stopped reading newspapers, magazines, comics and other books. I only read because I was ordered to or have to read. I don't know why I have lost that valuable interest. But I apprepciate my experiences so much for with my readings before, I am knowledgeable like today. I'm not stupid, I just don't read anymore. 


High Fidelity

Last Thursday,Mr. J showed us this movie in the class and it was about love in a unique and controversial way. These are the 4 questions that we were asked to answer about the movie.

Question 1:
What is the movie about?
- It was a first person point-of-view movie about a young man named Rob Gordon who likes music and he owns a record store call Championship Vinyl. He's obsessed with the Top Five stuffs that he also called all his broken relationships as the Top Five Worst Breakups. For me,he is actually a guy who's trying to find love and to have a stable relationship with his girlfriend. His relationships with the four of the girls were all ended up with the girls having relationship with other guys and he once dumped a girl who loved him because the girl refused to have sex with him. However,in his last relationship with Laura, a lawyer, he tried to get her back into his life even though Laura could see that they might have a little chances to go on with their relationship. After all, Rob always make assumptions about her like to assume that she might sleep with Ray or Ian. Rob is also a quite vengeful man and always have stupid thoughts. Upon thinking that Laura might have slept with Ian, he tried to spark a relationship with Marie De Salle and tried to sleep with her. He also have bad thoughts about every girl that he had broken up but then realized that it turns out to be the other way round. Actually, he was quite immature in any relationship that he had because every time he saw the girls before, he always thought that this is the girl for me but he couldn't take care of them and he always have the ego that makes him become selfish and never thought of other peoples' feelings.

Question 2:
How it is different from the common fiction?
-It was not totally different from the common love story but this movie provides some twists inside the story line and it looks like a compilation of love stories that end up in sad endings except for the last one which is between Rob and Laura. The differences that we may found in this movie unlike other love stories are for example, we can see that Rob is commenting on his life and about what he feels and what he's going to do about it. He confessed a lot of things and we can feel his feeling which make us see how love is from the point of view of a guy. Rob is not a romantic person and not even someone who cares a lot about the girl that he's in love with. He is not quite a responsible person and a bit immature or childish. In the common love fictions, we can always see that the guy must be charming, rich or educated, and responsible and caring to the girl which implies the personality of a perfect man that a girl always wanted to be with. Common fictions also contains some drama which can make us feel like owh,the character is truly right in almost everything but there are oppositions and conflicts that they have to face in their life. In High Fidelity, there are no such dramas but there are few conflicts that are opposing the relationship like the third person or some misunderstandings that can lead to arguments and so on.

Question 3:
Who's your favorite character?Why?Discuss.
- I don't really think that I am fond of anybody in this movie but the character that i like or agree the most in this movie would be Dick. He is a bald,soft spoken and geeky young man who works with Rob and he likes music so much.Even though he is quite geeky but he is not a freak or weirdo and he is kind and good to everybody in this movie. He is a good character as he don't use harsh words and his taste in music also very good and classy as he also listens to orchestra when Barry came and change the music to something that sounds like crap to me. I think I am bias in giving my opinions in this movie because I really don't like such characters like Barry or even Rob himself.

Question 4:
Provide an alternate ending.
- The movie could end with one of Rob's exes return to him back, for example Charlie for she is quite friendly and brilliant person but she has he own opinion like not to have children for the time being which for me is not a suitable choice to make a wife from her. I prefer if Liz could suddenly fall in love with Rob as she was always responsible in helping Rob to clear up the situations between him and Laura. She is always in touch with Rob and if suddenly Rob realize that how good she has been to him and love is not always about sex, I think it would be another good ending and as for Laura,she can keep staying with Ian or Ray if she cannot accept Rob anymore.

My Problems When I Write Things..

Well, honestly I admit that I'm not a good writer because I always have some problems when I write. I really want to improve myself and if I make any mistakes,please let me know and correct me.

These are my problems that I faced in writing :-

1. Sometimes when I try to explain things, I cannot find the correct words to use and my sentences might end up in a very confusing way.

2. I have lots of ideas in my mind but I find it hard to be expressed exactly, especially in English.

3. Sometimes I do confuse with my grammar usage because I tend to put the wrong tense at the wrong place.

4. Sometimes I write things based on what I am saying which is not supposed to be like that because speaking and writing English are a little bit different.

5. I like to use bombastic words since I was in school and ends up not understanding what i've written. This is kind of silly of me..

I think that's all..If I can think of some more problems,I'll list them out later.

Here Comes The New Semester...

After a quite long time sitting at home, finally I have to answer the call of the new semester in Shah Alam. But, before coming back, I must be ready with all sort of things especially my car since it was just finished the paint job. So after all the servicing and modifying things stuff, on 2nd July I drove back here with my friend which apparently he will become my super junior even though we used to be in the same class when we were in school, but since he took the 'maktab' TESL program, so he will become my junior in the link program with our faculty. well, that's what I like about my faculty, because i have about 6 friends from my school that study here with me and all of them are my juniors here.

So when I arrived here, the first thing I do is to go to the faculty and check out the timetable to make sure that my schedules are all correct but i found out that there were some changes on the time of the class, and I found it less pack but more night classes. Huuu... That was something that I need to bear with this semester. Okay..Then i went touring the whole Shah Alam and Klang and visited all of the places that I missed so much especially the cinema.. well, I don't get to watch movies in Terengganu because they don't have cinema there. I watched lots of movies till now and think i've watched all of the latest ones. What a very up-to-date man I am.. Haha..

When the classes starts, it means that I have to be in the faculty most of the time and it's kind of awkward this time because I can see too many newbies around. I don't know all of them, and feel like don't even want to know them but I think I miss all the seniors who are used to hang around the faculty especially the TESL Square. However, I still like the faculty so much and realizing that I am the senior now,I have this feeling like I never expect to be in this place..the SENIOR place. Well, all classes are fine and fun and I always sit in the front rows right now so that I can understand better of what I am learning. I used to be the 'backbenchers' before and it all ended up not hearing things and lost of focus. So, I promised my mother to change and get something in this semester.

All of the faculty life are so nice and comforting, but there's another life that I have to bear with.. My life as a Commander in the Kesatria.. Well, this is another thing which I don't really look forward to and enjoy so much because to have my trainings and practices, I've to be at the main campus with all the senior commanders who are very rude, cruel and torturing monsters that I hate so much! They have no respects to anybody but they want us to respect them because of their seniority..I think I would let them know someday that their seniority or this Kesatria thing won't go anywhere someday and these bastards who are so fanatic about being the commanders should be taught some politeness in dealing with people. They are actually savages who like to use harsh words and cruelty and bully who don't know how to do their job properly. I was hospitalized last semester because of them and this time, I would give the least commitment to the Kesatria because I know that it doesn't support my education and only give me troubles.

Well,that's all for now..