The Night I Wish to Forget

I was sending a postcard to my ex-girlfriend where she was 'stolen' by another guy, and here it goes....

Upon seeing this picture,

it reminds me of one night,

a night full of hatred,

a night full of deception,

a night I wish to forget;

A reminiscence of a tragedy.

It was warm and yet breezy,

the sky was clear,

moon shining bright with stars gleaming,

high above the solemn space.

I saw you,

far away from me,

lying in his warmth,

dancing in the moonlit night,

forgetting me and our moments together,

for the new guy.

I tried to call you,

screaming out loud inside my heart,

but you never listen anymore,

you're too far away,

in a joyful treason.

Then I danced alone,

feeling betrayed,

and misery became my partner,

as that sorrowful night crawling away,

and then I am gone,

away from a broken dream,

from the night that I wish to forget, forever. 

World Behind a Door

In the corner of the big house,

a door with a warning sign,

to another world it leads,

a glorious and gay world of mine.

Blue is the main theme,

Brown is the furnishing,

and White defines the boundaries,

My escapism lies in these colours.

The bunk is sitting majesticly on the left,

facing the wardrobe in its coziness,

with the technology smiling in between,

this is no ordinary chamber,

this is my life in my little world.

In here I spend my times,

Appreciating its solidness and pleasure,

of soundproof walls and lightning shield,

keeping me safe and euphoric at the same time,

no hesitations needed,

it's perfect..

it's perfect..

written by:

NivierA

*this is my first poem written in the Creative Writing class.. 

Ramadhan Al-Mubarak

Ramadhan Mubarak bienvenu..Je souhaite le jeûne heureux à chacun..

Peut Allah bénir tout le monde

Meaning..

Welcome Ramadhan al Mubarak.. I wish happy fasting to everybody.. May Allah bless us all..

In this Ramadhan, I discovered that this month can teach me to be very patience, patience to everything. I've faced quite a lot of things in this month and I am proud to be able to stand tough and being persistent or 'istiqamah' in whatever I do. Ramadhan this time is very unique because the Hijriah Calendar is parallel to the Christian Calendar, for example, 1st of Ramadhan is the same with 1st of September. It was actually nothing to be proud of but I was just amazed by the uniqueness. There's a lot of things going on in this month. I love and enjoy my night classes where I can spend time to 'berbuka' or break fast with my friends at the faculty, other than the classes, I spend my time cooking at home and sometimes trying new recipes of my own creation. Some are good and some are not bad. I only managed to go for Tarawih prayer once because of having lots of assignments to be done but I will find some time to go again in coming days, insyaAllah. I also discovered that the food at the bazaar are more expensive and it also not so good, some of them are bad which I don't know how these people could do this in this holy month. How I feel that they are not going to get Halal incomes for selling bad food. Last time I bought rice with chicken and the chicken was smelly and stinky like rotten meat. I also got diarrheas, maybe because of the food I ate but I don't really know, just have to be patient with everything. 

As for my studies, I am really thankful to Allah for all of them are okay, I managed to do my quizzes well, no cheating involved, and all of my assignments are well done, I think and I attend all classes with big heart. I love Ramadhan because it gives me peacefulness and some sort of pleasure and doing 'ibadah' including the 'ibadah sunat' in this month is really rewarding as Allah promises as doing one 'ibadah' in this month is considered like doing 'ibadah' in thousand months. Although I know that I'm not that pious but as long as I do all the compulsories, I know I'll be fine. Before this, I always get sick, I got fever, cold, backache, and I even passed out once, but in this month, Alhamdulillah, everything is fine, just a few minor tummy ache which I got from bad foods as I told earlier. I wish to slim my body down a little bit because my doctor told me that I am facing a slight overweight but it's not a big problem at all. My resolutions for this month are to donate more to unfortunate people, spend more time at the mosque doing 'solat jemaah', and zikr a lot for if we always remember Allah in everything we do, Allah will remember us too. InsyaAllah.. 

My Favorite Fictional Character..

There are lots of fictional characters that come across my mind when I'm thinking about this topic, but I wasn't thinking about superheroes or cartoons for they are not that interesting to me. I'll find those characters as freaks or craps who think they can save the world with their extraordinary abilities which aren't real at all. I prefer something real and acceptable. I have two favorite characters in mind, the first one is Detective John McClane in Die Hard series and the second one would be Jason Bourne from the Bourne trilogy. 

However, I won't talk about John McClane here for he is also someone like too good to be true where we may find that he is too difficult to die and he always wins. So I turn to Jason Bourne which is more lively and acceptable to me. Jason Bourne is character acted by Matt Damon in the trilogy and this character was created by Robert Ludlum in his novels before it is adapted to movies. The first novel, The Bourne Identity is a spy action thriller novel and published in 1980. This novel was about an ex CIA assassin who became a retrograde amnesiac after he got a headwound and several other wounds. He survived only to find out who he really is because he found out that there are several groups, assassins and CIA looking for him to be terminated for he is actually carrying really big secrets about CIA covert operations as he himself was an assassin working for CIA. He also has lots of identities to cover up for his 'bad' operations as he owns lots of passports of different countries with different names and amazingly, he also knows many languages, I repeat, MANY languages which make this character interesting. The first movie of this trilogy with the same title was produced in 2002 and it was made exactly according to the novel and it is very interesting.

This is the first novel by Robert Ludlum and the movie made to introduce Jason Bourne.

The story follows with the second novel published in 1986 entitled The Bourne Supremacy where in this novel, Bourne discovered his true self and what he was in before with the help of his girlfriend, Marie. However, in the movie produced in 2004 with the same title, the story contains a little bit twist and not made according to the movie but it is still very interesting because the story line and plots were arranged perfectly as Jason was in the process of discovering himself which he came to lots of obstructions including the death of his girlfriend, named Marie Kreutz in this movie. 

The second novel and movie

The last of the trilogy is published in 1990 entitled The Bourne Ultimatum and in this novel, Jason discovered his true name as David Webb and he has to finish his fight with his old enemy, Carlos the Jackal who is a terrorist trained under the Russian well known terrorist pact, the KGB and he fights with help from the CIA itself and after the death of the terrorist, Jason or David return to his family (he still has a family in the novel). In the movie with the same title, produced in 2007, contains completely different plot from the original novel where Jason's fight is only against the CIA directors and operatives who are against him and wanting to terminate him for he is a very well trained CIA assassin who's becoming a backfire to the CIA and their efforts in taking him down are useless for he is ready for everything and thinking one step ahead of them. He knows all the tactics and agenda of the CIA to get to him but he's getting closer and closer to them each time they want to get rid of him. Finally, he reaches his final destination which is the first place he was taken in as an operative of the CIA, where he lost his old identity as David Webb and lost everything in his life. 

The third novel and movie

That is supposed to be the end of the Bourne's trilogy but for the novel, after the death of the original author, Robert Ludlum, another author, Eric Van Lustbader proceeded with another sequel for the trilogy consisting of three novels entitled, The Bourne Legacy, The Bourne Betrayal and The Bourne Sanction. However, the sequels are not taken into the silver screen or maybe they are not taken yet. That's some briefing that I can give about the story. The character of Jason Bourne is really interesting to me because he is a very skillful man and very good in survival. He is always ahead of everybody and his plans are perfect and even though there are some times when the troubles come but he still can evade successfully and in fact, he becomes the one who after the bad guys bad and take them down one by one. He is not a bad guy anyway as he only injures each of his victims except when the person aftering him is a well trained assassin like him. He fights for his survival with his knowledge and hidden identities and not like other typical spy stories, who comes with great gadgets and handsome look, Jason only use his intellectual mind and his fast moves to get over every obstacles and indeed, he moves very fast. I idolize him because of his great spirit and determination to achieve something which is amazingly high, he never gets demotivated or upset and he only take down his real enemies but leave other peoples who are interfering in his war unharmed. As for me, Jason Bourne is the greatest fictional character that I salute so much and as you can see, I named my blog as The Niviera Ultimatum, according to the Bourne's last movie, The Bourne Ultimatum and Niviera is my other identity, just like Jason Bourne.

 The first sequel written by Eric van Lustbader in June 2004

The second sequel published in June 2007

The latest novel of Bourne published in July 2008

I Used To Read Books..

Long time ago, not quite long actually, when I was in school, I really love to read books and novels. I started to love reading when I was in the kindergarten when my parents bought me lots and lots of interesting books and one giant map book that I still keep till now. After that, whenever I go with my parents, I will always ask for something to read. 

When I was a kid, the famous books that time would be the 'Kawan' comic cum magazine and some comics such as Doraemon and Dragonball. When I was a bit older, I changed my interest to something serial such as investigation novels, the famous Enid Blyton's series and many more. I also love to check on encyclopedias, and lots of information books like books about facts, laws, science, histories, places, technologies and so on.. Math books would never be interesting to me until now because I really don't like Maths. 

During my secondary school years, I became a librarian together with my good friend back then, Safwan and we were the only male librarians available. I like to be on duty at the library so much that I always spend my time there whenever I got free times. Everyday after school, I would go and buy lunch and rush to the library to discover new things there. I believe that there are so many secrets that I can find in the library and I learn new things everyday. There are certain 

books that I like to read so much that I hide them under the library counter so that I can read them without having to look for them anywhere. I was really fond of books that can give me lots of knowledges and new experiences.

After I got an offer to study in MARA Junior Science College Serting in Negeri

Sembilan, I started visiting the library and started liking novel series again and my favourite novels that time would be Nancy Drews and The Hardy Boys. Those novels were kind of famous at that time and I read almost all of the books but there were some of the books missing or not available which I felt kind of sorry to miss it. At that time, the Ministry of Education introduced the NILAM reading campaign and as a constant reader, I was enlisted as the top borrower of the library and the reader who read so many books with lots of pages (thick books). However, before they pronounced me as the winner, I had to move to other school because of certain cases that I faced there. 

When I finished school, I stopped reading for pleasure. I kind of stop everything. I stopped reading newspapers, magazines, comics and other books. I only read because I was ordered to or have to read. I don't know why I have lost that valuable interest. But I apprepciate my experiences so much for with my readings before, I am knowledgeable like today. I'm not stupid, I just don't read anymore.